Where did it go?

Reception Ending

Nerves and holding back my fears.

Reception class, time is ending.

My little man has developed slowly.

A little below average but he is definately not SLOW.

He learns and takes it in but just not as quick.

Thats just like Me and Daddy "we see."

The class teacher.

No place to judge.

 But has to compare, to share, how the learning, is developing.

Age 5

So proud he can now read, he is just getting it.

He read Engine and Fire Fighter just today.

I just want him to be Happy.

Yeah for the holidays and then back to school to year 1

lots of room for growth, in the time off away from school.

Life on the Inside

I'm confused as i'm not sure what sex i will be. I am a 46 day old embryo and three quarters of an inch long. Fourteen days later I have grown to an inch and a half.
It is the third month  of my exsistance and I am twice the size, that i was. I can move for the first time and I'm a good kicker. I am now longer an embryo I am a foetus.

"Whats that not more chocolate"

Mother has fed me lots of chocolate today and I am sick of it, as I have had nothing but chocolate for the last two weeks.

I can hear murmers, and it echos all around me. Shannon, Carley, Lisa, emma. No No you can't call, the sound is muffled.Chelsea for a girl. That was a different voice, I havn't heard that one before. It hurt me ears, Kick,kic, kick,kick.

"Derick Derick come quick," Jane shouted.
"What Dear"
"Come quick the babys kicked," she shouted again.
"Oh has it,"
He puts his hard on top of my head , the voice frightens me so I stop kicking....

A week later... " Lucy, Chelsea, Richard, Robert" Shouts Derick.
" Yes Robert, Robert Ashbee,Richard Ashbee, I think i prefer Richard. "What do you prefer Derick?"
"How about we toss, cause I don't know"
"No we won't," Jane replied angrily.

I can distinguish between the voices that I 've heard now. Mummy generally speaks softly and Daddy  speaks in a louder tone. His voice doesn't frighten me anymore. I am five months old and have more than trebbled in weight. Something strange has happened in the last few days. I have just found out that i'm not alone, but I cannot see as my eyes stay permanantly closed. I found out by accident a couple of days ago, when I was poked and prodded, and well, all I can say is that I'm not happy with the idea of sharing my environment. I thank God, that I am not sharing the same cord.
On and positive note, at least I won't have to eat all that chocolate.
I take a while to accept the situation. I am the center of the universe and only I matter, I don't know the concept of feelings. I am egocentric. I puch and kick the other foetus to let them know i am there.
My environment is enriched with acoustic stimulation. I hear sounds of my mother eatting, drinking, breathing. There are cardio vascular noices along with gastrointestinal activity. The most frequent sounds I hear are that of the wombs, pulsating main arterry along with mummy's calm voice.
All the food I eat is liquified, my food is mixed up in amnoitic fluid. I heard extremely loud voices the other night and it not only made me wierd, it made me excrete alot of urea. I must have excreted several times in the last two hours. The brown bubbly mixture made the other foetus sleep and sleep which was fantastic, as I feltmore comfortable, having more space to maneuvre. You may think I am a horrible foetus, but I'm not really. I was worried about my foetus friend when it didn't wake up for a long time after the consumption of that brown bubbly liquid.
I am a boy and my foetus friend is a girl. To explain to you why I am so certain about this knowledge. We have only 2 months left now before we leave our environment, our ears are very close too the surface and sounds are very clear. We hear alot of television and I like football like the deep voice does and my foetus girl friend enjoys listoning to neighbours. Off caurse i switch off and sleep whislt she listens and she sleeps while I listen to the football.
I am aware of the anxiety of my mummy as everyday is a day closer to our due date. Though i am not sure about me staying here for much longer as I feel that I have no room to move or breath.
I have heard many different voices "bethave" but this word I do not understand the meaning of. The voices have said bet its two boys or I bet its two girls. Some talked about pounds, ten pounds or twenty pounds and this frustrates me as I would like to know what they mean.
I am getting out if here. Head down engaged ...

Water breaks .... I feel wierd but I need to head for the light. How on earth am I going to get out. Push Push I hear them shout and breath. What a good idea that makes my birth alot easier. 28 minutes later I have arrived oh my god I am screaming with the shock ... come on baby sister where are you... 22 minutes later she has joined me.

 Welcome to the world little ones.

1997 this was written.

I suffer the day in silence
My thoughts are very few
I try to forget about me
and just think about you

My head is sometimes spinning
I'm like a prisioner in my own mind.
I must try to go forward
Before i go further down the slide.

I wake up with all good intentions
To do what needs to be done
When I am well its great and with such special insight.
I am a person who knows what can be buried deep within
Affecting the everyday living of someone who can also be bold.
  I grant your pardon for all the things i have done
Will this make me well again and be round with open mind.
The gates just seem to be closed as i reach deep inside.

I feel so tired now that I made it up early today.
I will do......... that same tomorrow.

Depression

You can't live in the past
You have got to move on
Think about yourself and be happy.
Remember that you can enjoy yourself.
Accept who you are is first and foremost.
Then once you have accepted yourself others will also accept.
Don't forget that you are a kind and happy fun loving person and if you are making an effort
and they don't respond it is not anything you have done.
It is them, it is there problem, not yours.
Be interested in others and they will in return be interested in you.
You can't live in the past what if there is not tomorrow.
Live for today and look forward to tomorrow.

A night to remember

With the sound of Poetry and Acoustics what a perfect night.
It was fate to fall on the same night as the 40.

I had butterfly's arriving, into a place, I had never been, on an evening.
Out of practice you see, cause there are little people at home, who still really need me,

It was very soon forgotten being greated with a smile,
It probably sounds disgusting but it was very scrummy indeed.
A Birthday drink of Baileys, Vodka and Chocolateshake that looked like icecream,
What a treat.
I had a tearful moment with a card that everyone signed and
A Beautiful Engraved Glass, a Half Penny with my year, a photo of my Family and a Mountianeering Bear.
One spoilt lady I am and spolit with the friends I have.

" THANKYOU! westonsupermum you wouldn't know how much it means to me. "

Written for Mumsdiary March/April Edition

Weston-super-mum Happy times !

Having joined  Westonsupermum.com in January of 2010. I have personally only gained.

All the new friends I have made are of great support, and it is only right and fitting to say they are all “super - mums.”

Playing out, playing in, parks, play centres, peoples’ homes – Please come and join in. 

Pleased to read information and see what’s on in the week, in and around Weston online.

Year 2010 – Where did it go I surely don’t know. We enjoyed Parks and Childrens centres. Picnics

and outdoor wood adventures and not to forget the Weston-super-mum camps.  Now it has begun

there will be more to enjoy this year. I have personally only gained and my Boys have too.

First year over and we have just had a party to celebrate at the Old Town Quarry.

B ecause

I don’t want you to miss out I would love you to email info@westonsupermum.com and we can put you in touch with an exsisting super - mum, and meet you at an event so you won’t feel nervous about coming.

Right what’s going on now! We have regular monthly meets at the Purple sheep with Arts and Crafts on the first Saturday of every month with a low entrance price.

T he group has now over 520 members so also we are getting to have a strong voice in Weston.

Have you any groups you want to set up?  there are lots of individual groups within the site to join.

Do you know?  is a common question asked! If there is anything you want to know ask the over 520 members on the forum.

And now I am adding Photos.

(Feel the concentration! A few of the Westonsupermum children at the Purple Sheep monthly meet showing off their master pieces.

Y eah to Weston and the surrounding areas!! What a place !! What adventures we can all have with our children!!  Written by April Aka Apes super- mum a novice writer and rubbish speller.

Copy of My First Blog from westonsupermum.com

LOOKING THROUGH LENCES WITH CHILD EYES!

• Posted by Apes on March 25, 2010 at 10:37pm
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My son who has just turned 4 has changed and grown so much mentally and physically since Chirstmas 2009. At Christmas he asked for nothing more than Chocolate Cake off Santa. But not even 2 months later with his 4th Birthday approaching we asked him what would he like, and in reply he says a Camera and Binoculars.
We decided to scour ebay for a camera the same as our own as this is what he was used too! We found out the childrens cameras pixels are low, possibly spoiling the quality of what could potentially be a very good photo taken by a 4 year old.

The Blog begins now
I am fascinated the photos he takes. He starts by taking objects that obviously mean alot to him.
His ride on toy and his brothers parked next to one another click!
The C Beebies channel with Show Me Show Me on Click!
The Wiggles we have on Disc click! Then Daddy texts Mummy mobile to say Happy Birthday love
Daddy and he’s taken not one but five photos of the text on the phone. Plus another five with Mummy talking on the phone to Daddy and Baby Brother. Then later in the day on his Birthday day Daddy does a video conference call from his hotel room, as not with him on his birthday, for special time, and click he takes a photo of Daddy on the PC. Then its bedtime. One very tired Birthday Boy.

Party Day he takes a photo of every single balloon. One of his 14 month old Brother holding the TV remote,
( that’s where it went LOL) A picture of the bin then a picture of the chair.
The day after we all went out on a family meal with Nanny and Grandad and his Aunty and Uncle with 3 cousins and wow he has moved up a gear onto Faces as I forgot to add that in between all the other photos mentioned there were about 25 photos of his own feet.

But back at home the next day we are back to taking pictures of objects again but this time being strategically placed, it is very interesting. My little Photographers Work.

Feeling in Poem

Feeling in Poem

Do you find it hard,
When did it start,
How can it stop,
Is that the place, you know, deep in your heart.

Jealousy looms hearing,
Jealously spirals seeing,
Life,

This was once,
Apprechiated at the time, I doubt,
It can be again,
STOP

Dance, Laugh, Love as everyone tries.
No more looming spirals come and dry your eyes